Monday, December 14, 2009

付出 。 矛盾。 爱

付出
付出我的全部
我给你幸福
想起了这首歌
想着我是不是真的付出了

舍得
有舍才有得
我不舍所以得不到
或者
是我不愿意去舍

先苦后甜
我受不了
不喜欢苦
想要一直甜下去

雨后是晴天
雨后是彩虹
我的心一直都是灰灰的
毛毛雨一直下
所以彩虹不会常出现

任何事情
任何成果
都是经历了一番付出才会有成绩

我写了这么多
才发现其实这些道理我都懂
就是不曾去实践
所以一部没有成果

我承认
我有时不愿退让
我有时是真的很任性
我有时太高估你
我有时对你有太大的期望
我有时会无理取闹

可是

我也有退让的时候
我也有体谅的时候
我也有站在你的立场想过
我也曾忍气吞声
我也会迁就

全部的全部
都是为了什么?

只为了对方
希望感情可以维持长久
虽然知道我们都不能少了彼此
却不知道其实已经成了习惯

我太过习惯你的存在
习惯了你对我的爱
结果开始变得太过依赖
依赖你的存在
依赖你的爱
再来就是期望可以有再多
对你的期望也越来越高

一直到摇摇欲坠的地步
才知道
这一段路走来
真的很不容易
也发现
其实说得跟做的
相差太远
变得什么都不是了



Wednesday, December 9, 2009

I'm boring in the office ... so decided to blog a while =)

Dear frenz , you may think I've gone crazy ...
Please calm down and listen for this announcement,

I EXTENDED MY INTERNSHIP UNTIL 10 JAN 2010 !!

Wao !! cant believe ?
Yea, me, myself think so........

Who's the one keep blaming how bad is the work?
Who's the one keep count-downing since 2 months ago?
Who's the one keep blaming how boring here?
yada~~ yada ~~
End up, Who's the one volunteer to extend the internship ....???

Ok, let me explain....
I've put so much effort for the upcoming The Star Education Fair 2010
I never seen the set up for such a big event, from the Hall 1 - Hall 5 of KLCC
I wanted so much to participate for the event setup day, so this is my main reason.

Secondly, The F***tart leaving us very very soon !!! He resigned !!
Haha, you never know how happy am I here, oops, should be all the colleagues here =)
Since they have not much man power, and Crawford is still very new, he not yet catch up everything here, so this is my 2nd reason.

Lastly, I've mentioned on my facebook, I like some of the colleague here...
Like in the sense of like to work together, learn things from them and we can talk watever we want.
I knew I was quite late to get used and into this working environment, but it's so much better than nothing right ? =D

Anyway, I cant wait for the school life to start again !!
I miss all my college frenz !!!

And, I going for Twilight New Moon to9, on leave tml and holiday on Friday !!
yahoo~~ Long break




Sunday, November 29, 2009

I'm not in a good mood nor bad mood ...
Just felt so bored, the PPS loading slow, the bf bz wif assign, I have no idea how to start my report, so I decide to crab abit here and there in my blog....

I worked @ Sepang b4 for the Moto GP
the weather of the 1st days was sucks ...
We was suffering of standing under the hot sun ... sweating the whole day... At the end of the day, all of us get sun burn, even me ... the 1 whom skin colour hardly turn dark even went to beach for an afternoon ...
wao, suprise me man ~~
Anyway, I doesn't reli care about my skin colour... XD

Make new frenz of course ... and I meet another Cheryl from Tissot itself .. She was extremely cute and all of us like her so much ...
Here she is


other show girls ....

Elaine


Reachal


Yumi

And me in our booth



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oh yea ... forgot to mention, The B now working as part time Crown as well
He was quite enjoying and satisfy with the pay, so no objection from me =)





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some of my pic here AGAIN
spot these dress




oopsy , same pose huh ... ?





cant think of anything else to blog ...
- e.m.p.t.y -




Thursday, November 26, 2009

the recent Cheryl

wao .... been ages I never update my blog ...
I was so bz and lazy ... =)

My life is just so so, went to work everyday, spend time with the love one, spend time with my lappie, watch hong kong & korea drama and bla bla ........

Noticed that I never mention event here ? yeap ... I have no event basically, how bad =(
Life is boring without event; but I've done too much of callings and paper work, just too little event for me to attend ...
Haiz, what to do ? no blame, just wait ....
There's only 22 days left, nono, should say 14 days (without weekends)

Well, we have new colleague, named Crawford. He used to work with Sepang Circuit b4, so I wonder will he feel regret later ..The life here was extremely boring =.=''
Besides, I am actually quite happy to be here if she isn't here ... and he dun talk too much to me
These two are TOO MUCH !@##$%


Sis back from Johor edy, but we have no time to spend together.
Dad is too free, stay at home everyday....
Mom is still de same, workaholic
Younger sis working too ... she was telling us her working life story every night ... bla bla ~~

now ur turn, The B ...
I've spend too much time with him and this cause me cant stay without him ...
over pampered !! Yet happy =)


@ Otak -otak, 1u


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Perhaps I should learn from Ryan
Dun plan too much for the future, just let it be
It may suprise me, but I felt so much un-secure....
Used to plan whats the next to do, but at the end of the day, result may shows me the opposite way...
Seriously, I have too much in my mind, just dunno where to start and how to start
I'm lost yet stuck ...

grh ~~ This is not a good feel



Wednesday, October 14, 2009

cant describe how i feel now ...
still de same problems keep running in my mind ...

i have too much to express but dunno where to start
garhhhh .... just wanna shout out loud !!!

I miss my babe , miss my sis ...
and of course .. thanks to my dearest papa and mama .. always beside me
and their mentally support is really supporting me all the time ...
thanks for always being here for me ... *hug**

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what to do ?
ReD Fingers were trying to covered smth ...
#$%^&*#$%^&*



ignore me ..... =.=



Friday, September 25, 2009

失去方向

哈 !! 好笑吗? 我有再度失去自我了
白痴!!

我不知道我到底要怎样
太多太多的事情
涌进我的生活
太多的机会站在我面前
我不知道
我真的不晓得要怎么选

三岔路口?
我的应该有5 / 6 岔吧

贪心的我
希望每个都拥有
可是 , 一旦你分太多的心
就等于什么也做不好了
那又有什么意义 ?

反复的想了想
可能, 尝试是可以的
失败了就当是份鼓励
有哪条路一踏上就是高速公路?
毕竟还是要走几段小路的,不是吗
要是成功, 那固然好了

可是,我又怕跌得太伤
毕竟这是我的第一次
加上我的成本不多
这条路, 会顺利吗?

啊!!!
就是这几个问题把我搞得团团转

没有顾虑 = 天真
太过顾虑 = 烦恼 + 怠慢 ...... 然后换来安全?



毕业了就去考空姐。。。 我行吗?
毕业了再继续读书 ... children's psychology ... 我行吗? 我真的需要吗?
毕业后就进入 event company ?
毕业后继续 part time 做保险业 ?
开始做网上买卖... 有那么简单吗? 真的会赚钱?
开始参与 bazaar ... 会顺利吗?
把 daycare centre 买下来经营? 行得通吗?





我该怎样?

Monday, September 7, 2009

book warm

been ignoring my blog for almost 1 month again ...
reli sry my dear readers ...
been reli reli bz this few weeks ...
oh .. WTF

went to book fair wif shawn and wan li ...
never expect i will brought this much of books ...
never thought that i will spend so much money for it ...
much more than i spend for my clothing .. =.=''

tada ------------>>


the eng version - [One Fifth Avenue] & [Thanks for the Memories]


Chinese version --- as u can see ...

total cost : RM298
hohoho

becoming a book-warm ?
perhaps ... ?
but its true that I'm already addicted to books .... =)

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some of you may concern , how's my work @ THE STAR
oh .... how should I say ?
It's just too complicated

wear formal to work everyday , pass LDP toll everyday, park my car at B2 everyday, brainstorming everyday, been taught / educated everyday, perhaps some complain as well
argggg ~~~
its too lame to describe it anymore ...
but the conclusion is I DON'T LIKE THIS JOB, BUT I'M FORCED TO WORK !!

thanks god that I'm still quite lucky cause I no need to work for 7 days a week and my working hour is 9am-5.15pm , break time is 1pm-2pm

thanks god again for whenever I need my dear, he is just right beside me
Thanks for being there for me .... mental support is reli help !!


the department


my work place
yeap ... my lappie is still following me =)



this will be following me 3 months more ....




Tuesday, August 18, 2009

grandma birthday

another big event of my family ....
a birthday celebration for my dearest grandma
a very exciting and memorable event ....
I was actually keep waiting for the day to come , coz i really really miss all my relatives, my cousinsssss
erm, as i said its a big event ... can u imagine that we rent a bus just for the relatives who came from Hong Kong, and mom booked 7 table for the dinner ??
oh ... 70+ ppls will be around ......
wondering how is the crowd ?

we back to hometown on saturday night
sis, keith, dear n me sharing 1 car, then the others ..... [ oh .. who cares ? ]
it's a big suprise for my grandma, coz i went back to visit her on tues and wed, and i told her that i will not back for her birthday celebration this sat...
when i was there for her, she was very happy =)

sun morning, we woke up early for the praying session..
thx my grandma's mom n dad, who born my grandma ... lolz

few photos here ..


the first time with this full ...... XD






eat eat eat ....





remember this gal ? saw her b4 during chinese new year ... the cute yet lansi 1 ...



then we move to genting, as the relative who came from Hong Kong wanted to visit Genting


sis make-up-ing ... =)

4 of us sharing a car as well, and we actually doin nth there but camwhore for sure















and chill at starbucks



then me n dear following the bas to the temple near Genting


with my god-brothers


dear n me

snapshoot a bit there .. then back for dinner ...
lazy to descripe anymore, lets the pic to do the talking ba


grandma smile =)




c ......
my grandma had become a super star ... so many camera snap-shooting her ... hoho~~


and this innocent kid

my god parents :




godmother




both are god bro


and godfather

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happy birthday grandma ... love u always !! muacks

st. john dinner

some where around July I guess ...
went for the St. John dinner as the support for Jing and Shawn they all...
overall is quite good, the food taste nice also..
they have the game session which giving out toilet tissue =.=''
erm ........ and some others talks, performance ...

nth much to talk ... just some snapshoot here again






















tats all