Saturday, April 24, 2010

When I was so proud of you, I realised I'm actually nothing

Stunned ...... I got no idea what to start, just the feeling attacking me all the time ... make me feel reli sad about it ...

What the fucking hell nock am I thinking last time ... Was really regret that I didn study well and wasted my time to aim for only PASS for quite alot of subject ... I could do even better, I could score A for all subject, but why didn't I ? God knows ......

I was really proud of my friends around me, Shawn get the cadet pilot from Air Asia and training at canada right now, Peyshin studying her pharmacy at IMU, Carol wanted to go Hong Kong and further her study, as well as Chen yi .... Even the BF wanna go England for his exchange student programme and perhaps to finish the degree there as well.... Oops, the master in MBA indeed... The one who nearest with me, my sis was also studying Architecture at UTM ...

Look at myself, What the Fucking shit I doing here ?

I really admit I regret a lot and this is not the 1st time man ... talk cock and sing song .... yea, I did .... Not to say I should study as much as how they do, just I realise I dun even have a so called strength in myself. LIFELESS !!

Special thanks to Victor, Umah and Yuanni, three of them was my colleague and boss when I working at The Star. I learned a lot of things from them, and grew up a lot from there. Remember I was so so so regret that I choose The Star and kept complaining about that, yet I am appreciating them right now. Grown up to be more mature and look at things differently with all different angle.

Oh my god, shouldn't complain and regret bout myself any more ....
Keep the spirit and passion, walk towards my ideal life and dream ....


YES, I CAN DO IT
CHERYL CHEE HUI WEN CAN DO IT